imagine learning your grandpa fucks (douman)

[mukagen]

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thursday, week 3; after cyoa and they heal the fuck up

[mukagen]

[ So... Gojou has been following them! Whenever he has found Douman, he follows... Much like a cat looking for attention, but he doesn't say anything yet.

He doesn't know if he's allowed to say anything. ]

[commedia]

[Douman is just...]

[Slumped against a wall in the hallway? They glance over at Gojou as he approaches and....well, one eyes is back! That's good! The other is.....uh, shrunken, still in the stages of growing. Gross.]

...Gojou.

[They say. There's not much feeling in their voice.]

[mukagen]

Gramps!

[ In comparison, Gojou calls to them like he usually does, though he does look a little sad to see their growing eye. It must have hurt. ]

I didn't get to check on you when we got out...

[ There's some guilt. ]

[commedia]

...Ha.

[Their smile curves up into a grin.]

Are you checking me because you're really concerned, or because you're doing it for yourself, hm?

[mukagen]

[ Usually, he would say he was really concerned! And he is, but those words cut. Despite how they only have one fully formed eye, it feels like they can see through him.

How can he lie? He laughs a bit. ]

A bit of both? You lost both eyes, you know.

[commedia]

So what?

[A cold, harsh bitter laugh.]

Maybe it would have saved me from seeing anyone here again.

[mukagen]

[ He wanted to help them stand upright, but maybe he shouldn't touch right now. ]

Wouldn't you be lonely?

[commedia]

...

[Silence, for a moment.]

What does it matter?

[mukagen]

[ Nope. He doesn't like that question. FUCK IT. He goes to help Douman stand up!! Where were you going! Go ahead, he will be your other two legs! Even if it seems like he's a little hot... Small fever. ]

Of course, it matters! You deserve to be happy and surrounded by people who love you!

[commedia]

Eh...?

[Wait WHAT IS HAPPENING? Douman acts the way a mangy cat would upon being picked up by a stranger - lots of wriggling and hissing.]

Get...get OFF of me!! I don't need your pity!!!!!

[mukagen]

[ When mangy cats try to be together... Disaster. Gojou at least keeps Douman steady despite them being a handful. ]

Shut up! It isn't pity since I like you!

[commedia]

Don't lie to me!

[They're practically spitting with annoyance.]

You know my horrible past, don't you? Don't you? Haha! What could you possibly like about me?!

[mukagen]

We talked about this, haven't we? Are you just going to say I lied about that, too? Don't be selfish and blind.

[ He's getting annoyed, too. OLD MAN!! ]

I already knew what I was getting into when I saw your true name, but I still enjoyed our talks and whatever we did. No descent into crazy murder talk is going to make me think differently? It's not like I have good taste in people, anyway.

[ ... ]

You cursed me... So I'm staying.

[commedia]

...What?

[The last statement is so ridiculous, so nonsensical, that Douman actually does a doubletake.]

Are you mad? Who stays after a curse?!

[mukagen]

I do!

[ Gojou Satoru, not making sense, and also planning to rewrite the whole sorcery world... New rules and everything. ]

... I was happy when you cursed me, but that isn't the point. The point is, I still like you, despite everything. If I need to keep saying it, then I will—so don't go damning yourself to loneliness forever.

[ He knows what it's like. It's awful. ]

[commedia]

...

[That...attitude, yes, of course. It grates, like a burr against bare skin. That horrible, ever-forgiving, familiar attitude.]

[Despite the kind words, Douman's face just shifts into an ugly scowl as they turn away.]

You really are two peas in a pod.

[mukagen]

[ This again... Gojou isn't sure what it is that Douman sees in him. Abe no Seimei, from what he read, was the epitome of good. He was the light, the figure of justice, to Evil Douman. ]

Don't compare us. I'm not as popular or good as he is.

[commedia]

I'll compare you all I want.

[They've both taken things away from them.]

[Douman turns their head, dark eye and shrunken eye contorted with malice.]

I can't stand you. To even be reminded of that man, I would...I would curse you, a thousand times over. I would do everything to make you suffer.

[mukagen]

[ Gojou doesn't seem to mind that Douman looks at him like that. ]

All right. Go ahead. I'll curse you, too.

[commedia]

You've already cursed me.

[By taking Omi away. That's the curse. The worst curse of all.]

What more do you want?

[mukagen]

I just said it earlier? To be by your side. Curse you every day with my presence because I enjoy your company. I'm selfish like that.

[ is it your eyes that went or your ears, too, Douman. ]

... You're upset by what I said earlier, right? Back there in that room.

[commedia]

Despicable. You're despicable.

[What greater arrogance is there, than to stand at the side of a man who swears you're an enemy and pretend as if they hadn't heard a thing? He thought only Seimei could reach those heights, but Gojou? Gojou is getting there.]

Haha! What do you think? Let the great Gojou give answers to the questions he already knows.

[mukagen]

[ He doesn't think Douman is an enemy, but yeah. The arrogance is high in this one. ]

It would just be an excuse to say I wasn't myself at that moment... I can't take back what I said, but you know Omi isn't going anywhere, either. You guys are close and me being around won't change that.

[commedia]

...I don't believe that.

[Douman falls silent.]

[They can't understand, they won't understand. They refuse to understand.]

Besides, I don't need to be reminded of my failures every time I look at him.

[mukagen]

Then what are you going to do? Throw him away? He'll be hurt, you know.

[ It doesn't make any sense to him to do that, too. Gojou is getting a feeling that this runs deeper than Omi. With the comparison earlier, he can't help but keep thinking. ]

... It isn't just about Omi, is it?